Yes, it's been quite a while. And apparently blog.co.uk missed me. Well, it really has been a long time since I wrote a damn thing on my blog. I have a few more poems and things to put up, but I think I'll get to that later. Right now, there isn't much time. I guess when you start taking your life seriously, you begin to make better use of your time. I often feel the day isn't long enough for me to do all the things I want to do. That being said, if you're smart, you can manage to fit it all in. However, to get to a level where you can do that isn't that easy. That's most likely why I'm still stuck!
So where have I been? And what have I been up to? Well, I don't know where to begin. Last year things changed for me in a big way. I made many important decisions about my life, and instead of going (or even applying) to university, I left home and flew to India, to live what my mother calls a hippie bohemian life. I guess you could call it that, but I think I've got it made!
In India, even more changed. It was the slow awakening from a nightmare that some - in fact, most - would call 'reality'. I was waking up into another world, one of truth and opportunity. The awakening, of course, never ends, and to embark on 'a path with heart' such as this, is the rush of a lifetime. There is so much to discover, so much to see, yet we blind ourselves out of fear. Fear of the unknown, and the fear of anything that we are not accustomed to, anything that isn't 'normal'. I welcome the abnormal. It's the only thing that makes me feel free to be me, the weirdo that I am and always will be. And there's nothing wrong with that. We should all be free to be ourselves. People just need to open their eyes and see what is so plain to be seen.
You find answers only if you make the effort to look for them, only if you really want them. No one ever said things would be easy, and it never is, but that's what makes things worth the struggle. You gain so much more from something you worked hard to achieve than from something simple. And now I'm out here, trying to figure myself out, to discover the universe in all its glory. It's no bed of roses, but it makes me happy to know that I'm doing something worth doing.
There is so much to be gained from introspection, and I've found that through experience. It is fulfilling and inspiring, and the only thing you can ever really turn to. My awareness is growing in ways I never knew were possible, and the high it gives you is unlike anything you could imagine.
I've just changed so much! And things have changed for me! I'm happy! Really happy! Life isn't perfect of course, but it is ever progressing, and that's the best part. Unpredictable as it may be, my life is worth living, and I'm gonna make the most of it...
